Worst for me are visitors keep meeting others by leaving me
The stigma attached to me is the comfort-zone of visitors, which I always prefer, but this hits back to me. I would love to be in the gathering of those with the visitors and those who are with them. Once in a while your friends or relatives come to your land of birth as visitors. But again I noticed I’m unfortunate because I just keep myself free all the time for them (visitors). This is worst for me and would not continue the way things going on as I’m just optimistic. And visitors would then prefer to see me more often than not.
I always have some intent to keep myself busy all the time. But nay I keep myself free for the visitors and love to be with them. Unfortunately, I’m always on the other side and this would continue to hurt me a lot. I can’t justify it by claiming that visitors won’t have time for me. Nay, they do have time. But simply because I’m on the other side, it’s tough to be with them even for a 5% time out from their entire visiting time.
They come and they go. They would be so much busy in their busy schedule that the lucky people are those, who are generally with them always since their visit. Unfortunately, in a brisk pace their visit ends and I’m left with too many questions to ask myself.
What if they share a bit of their time with me and what not possible for them to keep me in their minds. Nay, they might be thinking in some perspective that I would be disturbed if they call me or want me to see them. All goes in favor of the people not so close than me to the visitors and they’ll be with them. Lucky people. Isn’t it?
Shockingly, I will be left hurt and the outcome would them thinking, their visit was wonderful. That’s what I want. Let them enjoy their visits and let the people with them enjoy too. What if I couldn’t make in their favorite five, I would still be happy if they’re happy. But the worst for me would be I try always to meet them during their visit. But I end up on the other side and they come or do up with their visit and go. So, why they come just to go?
Few more questions along with the previous one hurt me because in the end I’ve to spend just the ‘little time’ with them. It’s fine for me for at least they’ve time for others, who entertain them better than me. Yes, they don’t ignore me just because I’m no less an entertainer but I live always on the other side.
No more questions of entertaining or boring would come because if they like my company, they would try to meet me. It looks as if they want to avoid me. That’s not my regret but I’m on the other side to not fret at all. They go and I’m left.
